October started with so much
energy. I was full of excitement and I
had a number of things I looked forward to.
My mind and body were both in sync, counting the days with unending
thoughts. One by one they came and
filled my days with sunshine and joy. As
one by one left, a different yet familiar ghosts slowly kicked in. I hate to face the feeling of dreariness and
emotional outbursts but my! I'm just a
woman too good to cry in silence and prefers to remain silent. I went through a roller coaster of events and
emotional moments resulting my absence in updating this space. Because they are now water under the bridge, I
can now share them with you.
1.
Every time Jack comes home for a week long vacation the waiting time
moves in a slow motion. When he is
already at home, time moves in so fast like it was just yesterday. The most dreaded part of saying goodbye comes
then he leaves ... zooooom!! Argh! It would take me a whole week to recover and
this is what I went through when Ian and Kriziann went home after a week long
visit. Kriziann (2 yr old nephew) was a
lot to handle! It was a real topsy-turvy,
noisy, scheming, and screaming week at home but it was a hilarious and happy
bonding week after all. As I recall the
days now, I only have a smile on my lips and pleasant thoughts as I flip
through the memories. I can never forget
how Kriziann:
- reacts to every thrilling scenes of Atlantis' 1st
episode which appears frightening to him.
He cringes and cries yet he continues to watch it till the end. He was too glued in watching the Pacific Rim.
He finished the movie and he is such a funny boy. When the scenes became too intense he
panicked and cried and still he watches the movie intently.
- it was a revelation how a chocolate frap can affect a
2 year old. He was so high in
spirit and very uncontrollable. He
shouted and threw tantrums. Of
course, it was so attention grabbing and embarrassing to the other
customers. So, I asked Ian to let
him run around and sweat out to release the frap out from his system. Whew!
At least, it worked out. A
good relief! But my! He acted like
he was a drunk or one having hallucinations. Tsk!
- the toilet episode.
Jack went inside and Kriziann followed. He never listened as we called his
attention to get out. While Jack
peed, he was the audience and said "Uncle" with his innocent
grin. lol.
It was a good time to catch up
with my sister. There were no heart to
heart talks and shopping sprees but the company of having her and Kriziann
around was heart-warming enough. It was
nice hearing Z and Kriziann laugh together and see them play together. Fighting is not an estranged word to them but
they are not like adults, they can easily get over with the fighting and back
to being buddies again. How time flies! Their smiling and wacky faces in the photos
are contagious and are so fun to look at.
2. The laptop's hinge broke down and so it was
sent for repair as it will cause damage to the cover or worst the LCD later if
left neglected. I might belong to the dark
age in terms of updating my space but I prefer using a laptop. The screen size which I really appreciate,
the keyboard, and I don't know I am just so comfortable making my piece in the
laptop which my phone can't measure up to.
My phone is also a great tool for me but when it comes to writing, I
still prefer a laptop. Low tech or what,
still laptop! ☺.
Another reason to be AWOL from updating. ☺
3.
When I was above ground, way above dreariness and regained my old self
something surfaced that shattered the good vibes. It was a holiday the next day October 15, so
I was so spiced up to go out. I wanted
to go to the mall my feet were itching to go out. I need a breather. I text Jack if our Monday-Burger-hunt plan will
push through since the place we planned to go to is closed on Mondays. After several exchanges there was no firm and
final decision. From school I told Z to
take his snacks, finish his homework immediately, and change clothes because we
are going to the mall. He got his
homework, ate his snacks and was glued to the TV. I checked his homework and since the pictures
were a blur I had a hard time identifying some of the pictures. I resigned and told him to ask his teacher
again. Again and again I told him to
move fast as it was past 4PM. My
patience was pushed to the limit and I'm a very impatient person. I was not anymore interested of going
out. I was too angry and too
frustrated. I didn't talk to both of
them. I busied myself with the chores
and went to bed. I hate what I did but
this I reminded myself "If you have nothing nice to say then don't say
anything at all." It appears too
childlike of me or too unreasonable but here is my sentiment:
For many years, I have been in and out of the house
because I was a career woman. Anytime I
want to go to the mall, I can. I am in
touch with people, surrounded with people, and mingle with people. I am not complaining that my life now is just
home to school, school to home, home to mall (only as needed), and home to
somewhere else because as usual, as needed or whenever we have visitors. Good for them that they have an office and school
to go to. Whether they love it or hate
it, they get to live for a time in a different environment. Me?
I'm stuck at home! Me and me
alone until it's time for them to come home.
Yes, self-pity flooded over
me. I got mad and my thoughts were running
like crazy. It's a battle between me an
extrovert VS them the introverts. Sigh!
4.
Then a bad news. I received
Mama's text message last October 15 at 8:32AM.
The never before strongest earthquake that shook Bohol and Cebu in my whole existence happened. And this was my last update in my space. Still, I wasn't talking to my boys.
Next
day, I disabled my mute mode and in communication with Jack and Z again. It was not because of the earthquake episode
but because I chose to embrace a different outlook. I have given myself time and allowed what it
wanted to do which was to just shut up.
I had time to think things over, had time to debate with myself, had
time to think of activities that could help enrich myself despite setbacks and
limited resources and most of all, I prayed.
Despite
all these dramas I am thankful for the pick me up moments that happened
afterwards:
1.
Too timely! Ian sent me some stuff through Kliff who was
on a business trip in KL. A real lift me
up package.
2. For the first time since I landed in KL, I
had my me-moment-lunch accidentally and unexpectedly. I was already hungry and Kliff was still not
done so I ate ahead of him ☺.
3. I enrolled in a workshop but will do a
separate write-up.
4. For the first time, I did something I have
never done since relocating. It was like
a "day-off" feeling. Yes! A day-off even if it was only for 6
hours. I had a Me-time! I was on my own. I had lunch again on my own! I was roaming around the mall on my own. Re-charged?!
Definitely!
5. Jack brought home 2 slices of brownie cheesecake
even without being asked. I truly
appreciate the gesture.
6. Laughter has come home.
7. Short messages from friends whether from the
earthquake that happened, IG postings, and requests as long as it was addressed
to me ☺
-- Monique, Reenah, Imma, Rizza,
Lorena, Cha2x, July G., Tonet, Mygie and Tom.
8. Knowing that my family, friends and relatives
are alive and well after the quake and the endless tremors ... what more can I
ask for.
Happy
6 months to me and Z here in KL. I also
want to thank those who subscribe to this space or accidentally gets to read my
posts. With all my heart, thank
you.
It's raining here on
this calm Sunday but it doesn't mean KL is unhappy that we are here for the longest time
hahaha. God is just pouring down
wonderful blessings that's all☺.
Be safe everyone and countdown begins until yummylicious' delivery
arrives.
Have a great time with
your loved ones today ☺
!! Happy Sunday!
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